Normally I don't have any trouble writing, but this morning I just can't seem to articulate what's in my head and my heart. I'll do my best to record the very short life of Little Feller and what happened to him.
Thursday morning, the day after he was born, Loni went out to the barn around 10:00 to check on Sultanna and Little Feller. Everything was fine, and she did not notice any problems with him. I was planning on heading out late afternoon or early evening. Tim was flying home that afternoon and I was looking forward to hearing what he thought of the colt.
Around 5:00 he called and told me that the foal was dead. It took me a moment to grasp that - I was shocked and speechless. I pulled myself together and asked what had happened. Tim replied that when he'd pulled up by the nursery paddock, Little Feller was lying in the grass of the round pen and dead. There was no sign of trauma or injury; he was just stretched out on his side as though he were sleeping but sadly, he was gone.
Sultanna standing watch over her little guy.
While Tim had been traveling, I'd been keeping him up to date on how Little Feller was doing. He was up, he was nursing, he'd had difficulty passing his first poop but later ones were normal, he was active and inquisitive, walking on his hooves instead of his pasterns - all the things that you check when you have a newborn foal were fine.
Tim thanked me for all I had done and said that it was just one of those things that happens occasionally. I could hear the sadness in his voice, and I was in tears when we hung up.
I went out later that evening to check on Sultanna. She seemed confused and was happy to see me. I gave her some carrots and cried by her side.
Yesterday I went back out for my daily visit in the late afternoon. I saw that Tim had replaced the fence between the northeast pasture and the agribusiness next to it during the day and that the herd was now out in that pasture.
Sultanna was back with the herd, but she was keeping to herself. I didn't walk out to her nor did I call to Abby. I just didn't feel like it. Normally the barn is one of my happy places, but yesterday, the joy was gone. I just stood by the gate where we usually visit and let the tears come.
The nursery paddock, a place so recently full of happiness and hopes for the future, seemed empty and cold.
That's all I've got today, folks.