Peaceful

Bonus Post - More to Come

I went out to the barn yesterday after church. I was wearing a dress and sandals, not conducive to hiking out to Abby's grave, but then, I wasn't going to her grave.

I'd asked Tim at church if the far northwest pasture had been grazed recently or if it was high and in need of horses to come and munch. As I'd expected with only three horses to graze the pastures now, he told me that the field was tall. And, as he pointed out, there was manure (which doesn't bother me) and very uneven ground (which does) in that particular pasture that I'd need to navigate my walker around.

"I honestly don't think you'd be able to get out to the graves without help right now," he said apologetically. 

I wasn't surprised. And you know what? It was okay.

As I said, I drove out directly from church.

As I drove past the north end of the northwest pasture, I could see what he meant - the grass was high and would be difficult to push my walker through.

I could see the spot where Abby and Two Socks were laid to rest even though I could not get out to it.

I continued past the barn's property and drove past the woods on the other side of the graves. I love that the woods shelter and protect them from the prevailing winds.

Turning my car around, I drove back and around, heading up the lane to the new barn and parking my car. I was able to walk out to the fence bordering the south pasture and the hayfield where I could look out to the graves.

I snapped some photos and as I stood there, a wash of peace came over me. Abby was gone, true, but her final resting place was familiar to her and she was at the home she had loved.  

I turned around and walked back to my car. The feeling of peacefulness remained, and I drove home quietly, feeling very grateful that she had been my girl.

I am gonna be okay. 

Yellow outlines the property; the red circle shows the three smallest trees on the property. Abby and Two Socks were standing under the one on the right when it was struck by lightning. The light blue dot is their grave site.